I have my own site http://www.freewebs.com/resour cefulliving and what I can say is, freewebs does NOT cost anything to run. In my website, I fully tell about myself, and basically that I'm in need. I have several donation buttons set up for anyone who could make a donation to help me make a living, get back on my feet in return for me providing a site of resources, much like here. Resources to all sorts of different needs both national and local. I also have a guestbook (which no one has signed yet, so PLEASE stop by!) as well as a forum where those in need can just converse, offer each other support, information, encouragement, and such. Also where people can post if/when & what they can help with, as well as a topic for those in need to list their needs. Then I have links to my other sites as well. But my site is legit & I have my personal pics up, my email & explain my situation, and the general area in which I live, so CHECK IT OUT. Unfortunately, I have not had anyone of the hundred & some visitors even sign my guestbook or post in my forum, let alone make a donation. It's tough out there & what's sad is the scammers out there in internet land make it impossible for the real people in need to get real help. As far as freewebs helping the needy, they're asking for $$$ up front to run the site that cost nothing, so I'd be very leary too. I was/am hoping to eventually..some day to be able to straighten my own life out, and in addition make a living helping others with my sites, but I have to make real money, and so far not a penny, but I would luv to get to that point in the future. I just hope I make it & survive until that happens. Bills, medications & other problems & needs don't wait or delay, they just are. JMO
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I too, need to make a deposit of $350. They will accept $150 down, then split and charge the remaining to my account over two months, which would be an added $100 to my electric bill for ea. month for two months only. Do you have an Electric deposit refund from you other place you can get back? You can also check with your local community service programs, social services, as well as churches. There are few, far in between, but they're there & every little bit helps. You can also go to my site "Resourceful Living" for resources, links, encouragement, info, etc.
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7/20/07 - You can also find many different helpful resource links on my site, so please be sure to keep checking my page, as it continues to grow, and I continiously make updates & add resource links.  The one important thing to remember is to take things "one day at a time".  

Speaking of taking things slowly, it's especially important to take things "one day at a time" if you are trying to deal with a crisis and manage mental illness in addition to your crisis.  I have personally have dealt with mental illness most of my life, and I'm now 42, so if anyone knows the challenges of handling both, I do.  That's why I have also dedicated a page for Mental Health Matter's where you can find many stories, resources, links, information, support, etc. for mental illness of all kinds.  For me, I have to take things "one day at a time" because sometimes, that's the only way I can get through a day without being too overwhelmed.

Perhaps you want to know or read about a variety of different Life Matter's, well then I have another page for you to visit where you can do just that, read some of my personal blogging (with my personal opinions, thoughts, concerns, struggles, etc), find different life resources/links, information, inspiration & encouragement & much more.  Visit my page collectively titled...Life Matter's.  Please feel free to email me any time, we can go through it together.  If you have time, leave me a message and/or comment, I'd love to read them...for they (you) are my inspiration too!  Thanks to some great people here, along with their encouragment and support, that's a big part of what helps me day-to-day.  ~K

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7/12/07 - Some of you (and any others interested) may also want to check out my new site "Resourceful Living"  where you can find even more inspiration, resources/links, motivation tips, a forum, etc.  It's all thanks to the encouragement and help of many of you here including, but not limited to...Rose, Elaine, Soul Light, Poorly Living...all gave me the inspiration & the extra push...thanks to you all!!!  Come visit my page! 

Still lot's to do yet, but it continues to be up & running, with more Life Matters/Issues information & blogging each day !  So don't forget to keep checkin in with my new site ~KC's Bloggin' - "Life Matter's"  Rememer, like I said, it's just the beginning, so it has lot's of growth yet!  Thanks again everyone!  Please continue to keep me in your thoughts & prayers, as I will you!

7/5/07- My biggest challenge, and real-soon-to-be immediate need, is still bad word...finances $$$...keeping the rent paid, electric on, and definately my internet! But I'm going keep on keepin' on, because I have hope and I know I have prayers, and well-wishes.  Which you know I GREATLY APPRECIATE!

7-4-07 - I just wanted to take a minute to thank those who have been so gracious to me with your time, efforts, encouragement & helpful links.  So okay, it's not money, BUT it is doing me good.   So any other out there feeling down and/or hopeless, stick around!  So, I thank you for that & you know who you all are!  Thanks again, & I am certianly going to stick around for more encouragement, tips, & etc.

7-3-07 - For the record, NOT that anyone was accusing me, they weren't, but I just wanted to let everyone know, I only wanted $$$ to help me out this one time to get me through this...get me back on the right path.  HAD I gotten $1200, I could have gotten out of this situation, but now it' s much worse & is going to tons more worse.   Also for the record, I did NOT get even once cent donated from here, friends, family, no one.  I want to work at home (at a real job opportunity) and willing to work for it, but I can't get that either.  I have NEVER, EVER asked for free money in my life.  I've worked my butt off all my life for nothing.  I just didnt want to come across to anyone as trying to pull a scam or anything of the like.  I suppose I should let my time be done here b/c I've tried all I could for a week.  I will try to continue to fight, but I guess I'll just leave it in GODS hands now, whether it will work out or not and whether I will live or die, but I pray I die rather than deal with any of this any more.  As for the rest of you in need, and I know there is an unbelievable amount  of you here....do stay here & read on b/c there IS some good info here that can do a lot of people good.  Take Care.

My UPDATE:  It's too late, I have now LOST both my car AND my job.  My rent is due, I need food, computer payment is coming up and I don't have it, so things are about to get even worse than before.  I can AND will work from home, as I am very experienced in administrative office work as well as, writing, and I'm very computer/internet savvy.  I have lot's of skills to put to good use.  I've worked as a Travel Consultant, Beauty Consultant, worked in a law office, housing assistance/section 8, manufacturing, retail, rental property, etc., so I have TONS of experience under my belt in addition to my knowledge & skills, but I need a LEGITIMATE work from home job FAST/NOW!!!    One that is real, pays well is full-time and needs no $$$ down.  I just don't have a car, so I can't do any traveling or delivery, besides I have no money and my illness is hindering me getting outside right now too. 

I have my bad "suicidal" moments, and I know I need some help with counseling & etc, but I can't think about that, until I know I have a place to come back to.  I am trying to hold onto what little faith I have, but so far no breakthroughs in that area either.  I'm just very scared, and more desperate with each passing day.  I so want to get out of this & get ahead, so as to be able to come back here & help others too...that would be my wish.  I still have my page/link up, not that it's working right and it's too late for my car now, but I'll leave it up in case there is someone out there who want's to/can donate anything even if it's $10 or $1 ...because regardless of what happens, I'm going to need $$$ now to stay afloat & get me by until something is figured out or comes along.  In the meantime, I'll keep praying & PLEASE keep praying for me.  Thanks.

Dd_Inside07@yahoo.com

http://www.geocities.com/dd_inside07/Dead_Inside.html

IF YOU TRULY CARE & ARE IN ANY POSITION TO HELP ME YOU'LL FIND MY LINK BELOW.  ABSOLUTELY NO SCAMMERS, NO IMPOSTERS, NO PLAYERS, NO GAMERS, AND NO BUSY BODIES!!!  ONLY HONEST CARING PEOPLE WHO ARE IN A POSITION TO HELP!!!   IF YOU DONATE, I CAN & WILL SHOW YOU RECEIPTS & EXPLANATIONS TO WHERE THE MONEY GOES.  FEEL FREE TO READ MY MOST INNER DEEP THOUGHTS IN MY BLOGGING.  I DON'T KNOW WHAT ELSE I CAN DO OR SAY EXCEPT PLEASE.

http://www.geocities.com/dd_inside07/Dead_Inside.html

Dd_Inside07@yahoo.com

*JUST TO GIVE YOU SOME MORE INSIGHT....I'VE BEEN THERE/HERE BEFORE....MY EX-HUBBY USE TO CHEAT ON ME, STAY OUT ALL NIGHT DANCING & SLEEPING WITH ANOTHER WOMEN, THEY'D MAKE LOVE & THEN HE'D COME GET IN BED WITH ME THE NEXT MORNING SMELLING LIKE PERFUME, ALCOHOL & SEX, I'D TRY TO KICK HIM OUT, BUT IT NEVER WORKED...HE TREATED ME HORRIBLE, SO I EVENTUALLY FILED FOR DIVORCE AND THIS STARTED MY SEVERE FINANCIAL PROBLEMS TO WHERE THERE HAS BEEN NO END.  I divorced in 2001, my mother passed away December 13th, 2001 (she was helping me financially), then I became ill with Viral Menengitus in April 2002, so that hurt my finances (& apparently my job), then I lost my job of 8 1/2 years without any warning & I was Employee of the Year in 01.  Then I went on to lose my car and my home...everything!  I had no Christmas in 2005...no food, nothing.   Needless to say, my mental/emotional & physical state deteriorated pretty quickly, to which I have never been the same since.  I had no choice but to file Chapter 7 Bankruptcy in Nov 2005.  I struggled and made it through 2006 and just moved to Roanoke, VA to accept a new job and what I thought was going to be a great new start, only to turn into a nightmare!  And you know the rest aka the latest.

ALSO, GO READ MY BLOG ABOUT SCAMMING, I wrote today! You can also find plenty of good info there, and where you can report Scams & Spam etc. Someone actually tried to scam me earlier today by email. Offering me $500...blah, blah, blah. Night everyone!
"Life Matter's" Topic: Scams & Spam

WATCH OUT b/c this scammer is bad...really tried to play me, trying to say the right things. Sickening!  You know what is one of the hardest things to take in a time like this, is people who try to scam those with nothing already and/or hanging on to life by a string!!!???   Grrrr

Anyway, here's the email I received... Hello, My name is Mr CRUZ SAMLEX, I am an artist with my wife Mrs Cynthia SAMLEX,We own SAMLEX ART WORLD INC. in London (United Kingdom)I live in London United Kingdom, with my two kids, four cats, one dog and the love of my life my wife Mrs Cynthia Mercury and i am willing to help people that need help through donations and when i get here i read your message talking about your problem and i am willing to donate money to you to surf your problem out, but i dont have paypal account, beacuse people are be scam through the paypal last year and i decided to closed it. And since that time my mode of payment is,i receive my payment by Money Order / Cashier Check / Travelers Check and now my client want to issue me a payment which i thing if you are willing to accept my donation. All you need to do is to get back to me with your full information and you can have $500.00 out of the payment you cash. Below is the request info, #Your full name: #Your full home address: #City, State, Zipcode: #Your age: #Sex #Occupation: #Mar ital status: #Home/Cell telephone number: #Nationality: So that your information can be forward to my client and the payment can be issue out to you immediately and as soon as you get the payment cash the payment and remove your $500.00 and forward the balance to me and this is not the end, i promise to always render you any help you need. And i will let you know when ever my client want to issue me payment, so that i can be helping you with money. And I also believe a friend indeed is a friend inneed. So Get back to me with your valid full information to frankmercury101@yahoo.com. God Bless Director of SAMLEX ART WORLD INC, London, United Kingdom.

Unfortunately, I still have a need, as my immediate problems won't wait.  My biggest challenge, and real-soon-to-be immediate need, is still bad word...finances $$$...keeping the rent paid, electric on, and definately my internet!  I am now going week three without a paycheck.  It's too late for my car, I already lost it...I loved that car...it was a 2003 used Toyota Corrolla, but I loved it!  Anyway, it's gone.  Okay I hanging in & working on some things & I know they will take some time, but again, I don't have time to handle some of my immediate needs.  So reality is I am of course now without any transportation, I am Bipolar II with a Social Phobia & General Anxiety disorder AND it is in swing.  (It's debilitating, embarrassing, pathetic, disgusting & shameful.  And as some of you already know, it was in FULL swing over a week ago, and many of you know what happened.  Well now I am also dealing with some of the after effects, as it didn't take.  I know I need to get to a Dr., but all this is overwhelming, where to go, how to pay for it, etc., etc., just too much to handle and pressure/stress of that nature, I don't do well with.  My after effects have been extreme fatigue, shortness of breath, tremors, occasional unvoluntary muscle movement, dizziness/unsteadiness, constant noise & ringing in my ears, some minor/light hallucinations when I try to sleep.  And it's mostly worse for whatever reason towards evening, but especially when I try to sleep.  I can't get to sleep for hours on end, then finally I do, but wake up many times ...hearing noises, involuntary muscle movements, bad dreams...then later in the wee hours of the morning around 5 AM I get to sleep & then can't wake up or get up til 1PM, and still not rested. 

Then the $$$ matter.  Besides you great folks here, no one is even checking on me anymore, and when they do it's not for me...it's them wanting something or to vent silly stuff that doesnt matter to me right now.  But nope, I don't hear from any of them now.  Not friends, not family, no one.  Of course, they know I won't talk or answer the phone or door, but still they know what I deal with financilly & personally.  Okay, I did lose my car...I had to come up with $1225, but didn't...I had like $200 & that was mine left.  Anyway, so okay I lost my car.  So okay, with what I had left and my son's help, as he is the only one that gives me any $$$ (even though personally he drives me nut's & worries me himself), helped to pay July's rent, internet/phone, water & got a few groceries.  He gives me $125 to help with my rent and another $20 towards the computer & buys a few odds & ins must have's in groceries, but he doesnt have much money either...shoot between his car payment & car insurance it's takes all but about $150 @ check and he only get's two checks a month, which he's giving me like $180 or so of once a month... which is $90 @ check, so that's leaving my son with $90 every two weeks for gas for him to get to his job & eat, clothing...so forth.   And honesly, I HATE having to have him b/c he's been doing it since he was 15 & he's 23 now.  I am actually bringing him down in many ways too...that's the truth.  I wish he'd get away from me (and some of his so-called friends) and work on his on life....NOT follow in my footsteps, but unfortunately that's what's happening.  My BIGGEST problem is keeping a roof over my head & food.  I'm going to apply for food stamps, but my rent is $585 @ month, plus I just moved here mid-may & still owe my $585 security even...which was suppose to be paid June 1st, then I still HAVEN'T gotten the electric changed into my name from the landlords...AEP want's $350 deposit!!!!  They said I had to pay $150 down & they could add the rest onto my account.  I don't have any $$$ .  Then me needing to get to a Dr., for both Physically & Mental reasons, which I need meds & know how to apply to get those, but still what about $$$ to pay the Doctor and/or hospital???   Cause a trip in & out isn't going to do it...I know that.  I'm sorry for going on & venting, but as you can tell...I am starting to really worry again as it get's down to the nitty gritty.  I have debilitating migraines, which Thank God I haven't had any in the last two weeks (although I'm shocked with what I did) because I ran out of my prescription migraine meds too.  It's like everything coincides b/c with my illness...I have to have peace/calm/stress free self & environment, but that's IMPOSSIBLE in my situation, which in turn make my illness act up & much worse...then b/c of boths of those things, plus no car...I can't get out to work and since about 2002 my mental illness is more frequent & much more severe, but then I've had tons of stress since then...I haven't been able to hold down a job for one related reason or another since then.  People, kids....things they do & say...my own son & his g/f....I can't stand being around near anyone!  Hate it!  Solitude is the only way I can cope..well with my cat ...it's like he know's...he's the only one who is by me all the time.  I can't hardly stand getting out around the working world...because people stress me out!!!  I mean it's life, but it stress me out...I can't stand it!  I dunno just worried, worried again...but thanks for listening "again".  I keep on keeping on, I pray, you pray, but whether my help comes from the good lord up above or here...time isn't going to stand still & wait, so I worry.

And sorry, I have to vent some more.  People who try to scam you and/or mock the need of Aid, mocking comments and/or help needed, posting scams, emailing you trying to scam you...coming on here saying they need help, but then dressing half naked & etc or showing things that don't need to be public...totally disgust me!  FOR SHAME!!!  Do they not have ANY self-respect, decency, dignity, compassion...or all they all the devil in disguise?  Obviously devil's in disguise.  They need way more help somewhere else...CHURCH!  Sorry ya'll, but it just get's to me, so on that note, I think I'll go for now.

Thank you so much, I am so touched. I feel blessed just having met some of you here. Thanks again, & many blessing to you as well.

Thank you so much for your kind & encouraging words afriendinneed. I have my ups & downs, especially with my situation & having bipolar II, along with my other issues, so it's very challenging, but they have helped lift my spirits here & given me real ideas. Thanks again, and I hope your situation improves as well, and if okay WHEN mine improves, I'll be right around here to help anyone else anyway I can, including you. Bless you!

Thanks Angelgil. Wow, lot's to be proud of! Very interesting info & outlook indeed. I've taken note to your email addy, phone & website info...thanks again. I only hope that someday soon I will feel alive_inside again, it's been a long time, but I'm still hoping.

That's awesome news & amazing, now if they can just get it going like...now. I've been on just about every anti-depressent there is: Effexor, Cymbalta, Prozac, Zoloft, Buspar, Wellbutrin, Lexapro, & more I can ever remember. I soooooo want the right meds, and sooo anxious.

That's awesome news & amazing, now if they can just get it going like...now. I've been on just about every anti-depressent there is: Effexor, Cymbalta, Prozac, Zoloft, Buspar, Wellbutrin, Lexapro, & more I can ever remember. I soooooo want the right meds, and sooo anxious.

Elaine, http://www.modestneeds.org is the one who turned me down, not once, but twice??????? I don't understand it? They also want you to "write" your need/story to perfection. I didn't know it was about a writing contest, I thought it was based on need? Consequently, I am a amateur writer. I am just frustrated. I have used some of the great resources you've offered here, such as: I searched & signed up for TONS of "work from home" jobs/opportunities, but so far each one that has responded want's $$$, so nothing there yet. But I do know there are some ligitmate one's out there b/c I know a couple of people who work from home, nothing I can personally do, but still they do work from home & it's ligit, so there are ligit "work from home" jobs out there. I have also written to churches, only had one write me back. I have to send in an application for help with them, then I also looked at some of the "fundraising" ideas in the meantime. What I really need right now is $$$ and/or a way to make it from home because I have no car/transportation, and with my illness status, best if I could work from home right now. I do thank ya'll for the help.

Thanks Lora, I appreciate your encouragement & sincerity. I am new here in my area, but I did perform an internet search for churches & found several, so I emailed the pastor of those churches (as it asks you to do) two days ago, and have not heard one response, this is what is so discouraging...the churches & pastors themselves, don't acknowledge you. What else is sad, is when I get like this, and/or have finacial troubles...my friends are scarce. *sigh*

Lora.C "Dead_Inside" is just that...I feel dead inside, I no longer feel alive. I actually lost that feeling a long time ago, not even sure exactly when it was. Suicidal, yes, I have attempted suicide many times in the past & just recently, I've attempted it three times, only to keep waking up with a nasty headache, ringing in my ears, and very shaky, but still here nevertheless. As far as your "work-at-home" ideas, yes, those are legitimate & I've even done some of them, but they don't get you anywhere. I put a lot of time & effort in, and got little in return, not to mention had to keep investing my own money. Also, my health, both mental/emotional and physical arent as good, nor do I have ANY transportation, but one of my problems, is social/personality disorder. As it is now, I don't want to see anyone! Back in my day before things got so bad all the way around, I sold AVON (lost money), BeautiControl Cosmetics (lost money), Princess House (lost money) and Home Interior (got lot's of free stuff, but too much traveling, set-up & etc. for me now). I don't want to be rich either (if I was fine)I'd just like to be content, stable...able to live comfortably. Enjoyed reading your profile. Thanks.

Lady Christie, I need to claify to everyone, that your site is a great thing you've done and indeed a great source of information. I only want to make sure everyone is extra careful with what they actually pursue, especially when it comes to asking for money, because sad but true, devils, dress in angels disguise, so you have to be extra careful with everything & everyone.

On your site "Poorly Living" "Work at Home" "SCAM" (You always know it's a scam anytime they ask for $$$, even if it's just $2.99. Grrrrrrrrrrrrr What bothers & hurts me the most is HOW can other people do such hurtful low things to others in need???? RE: Now all you need to do is pay your ONE-TIME membership fee. This is a lifetime membership which includes unlimited lifetime support and customer service. As soon as payment is received, you will automatically be re-directed to our exclusive members area to begin. You may pay this one time fee with your credit card, with your checking account or with a money order, MoneyGram, or Western Union through E-gold or AlertPay. Was $99, now only $49.95 (limited time offer) The regular price of $99 will be effective next month. A small price to pay for the amount of money you will make from this program. Follow the step by step instructions that I've laid out for, and you will realize you've made a wise investment!

I do thank you for trying & sharing the information and some of it is good info, but I've done it all & for someone with Bipolar, Anxiety & Social Disorders is not always easy, far from it.

Been there, done those. All SCAMS and/or hot air. Where is the real help?

Me too josie19, me too. Rent is due on July 1st, I don't have it. I lost my car...asked for help from everyone & everywhere I could think of, even here, but no help or donations, not one red cent...I LOST MY CAR YESTERDAY for good. I have internet & computer for another two weeks & after that, I don't know. But right now, it's all I have to communicate. I have tried overdosing on pills twice now, unsuccessfully, but they say the third time is a charm. I am trying to hold out & trying to have faith, but I am being shown NOTHING.

Neither one of these (prosper or modestneeds.org) are worth anything, I applied twice and was turned down both times. This after I have no job, my car was repossessed, I can't pay my rent and I suicidal & they won't help!? Then they want you to right just the perfect application story!??? Unfreakin'believable!? I am more than discouraged, and feeling hopeless. As far as me, it's too late for my job & car, they are both gone. Suicidal, I've tried twice now, but pulled outta both, although my ears are still ringing. Better luck next time! Yes, I'm fed up & disgusted.

Angelindisguise, I wish I could say you would be my "Angel in Disguies", but unfortunately, it's just more scamming...been there done that everyone! Done the survey thing, have tried three different work-at-home jobs, they're all scams. You work, work, work & work, for nothing but a penny, then you spend out ton's to try to make it work..none of it works. And let me tell you, in order for any of them to remotely work, you MUST BE a high energy, extremely healthy, highly motivated, wildly outgoing personilty with someone or some money to fall back on...otherwise, useless. Me, I have to struggle daily to get out of bed, to get through a day with a headache or migraine, my back hurting, my knees, whatever it may be & you want me running all over the place!?

AND...those of you sending me email scams or posting scams...do you have no shame at all!!!??? I mean we are all here because we are at a low point in our lives, we HAVE NO MONEY!!! So why are you trying to get or make money from those who have none to take!!!??? Sorry, but I had to vent.

Okay, so now what? I now have NO $$$ MONEY coming in at all, so things are going from BAD to WORSE. Which was why I was asking for help to prevent, only it didn't help. So now in a matter of days, I will begin to certainly lose everything...financially, personally, mentally and emotionally.

NOTHING WORKS! TIME IS RUNNING OUT! I have tried asking for donations, links given to me for $$$ available, loans, etc., AND STILL NOTHING!!! Either I get NO RESPONSES or I get turned down as always. I am in NO state of mind to handle all this, I'm losing all hope, along with my mind. I have two days to come up with money to get my car back, $$$ for my rent due on the 1st IF I don't get it, I WILL LOSE EVERYTHING after this point!!! I mean EVERYTHING!!! There will be no point of return this time, I will be down & out for good. My mind is back & forth on suicide, people give me hope & links & etc, so I hang on & try, BUT JUST GET DISAPPOINTED each & everytime...it's useless. I keep trying & holding on, BUT for what!!!??? WHAT!!!??? I'm eating pills left & right to cope & deal and waiting for the moment when I've had to many...hopefully soon! I mean I can't get one red cent anywhere, I'm so stupid I can't even set up a damn donation button right. I must be out of my mind to be doing this whole stupid thing anyway.

One thing no one can say about me is, they can't say I never tried. Still nothing, no help. And looking at all the other pages/posts of people in need just makes me realize there is no hope for me or much of anyone.

Unfortunately, I am at the end of my rope and nothing is working out, nothing has manifested, no solutions have worked. Still all I have is words of encouragement, but even those are empty to me anymore. I have prayed, I moved to a cheaper place, I have gone without food, cable, etc., many things for many years, I am not doing it anymore. One way or another it has to end.

Thanks, and maybe I will see it for real, but in my lifetime, and that has been more than 40+ yrs now, I have yet to see "real" hope. I've seen and been given lot's of words of encouragement, but never more.

Thanks. And the 6' feet under thing...exactly it's real & permanent...nothing else is.