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Hopeful-Soul

posted on Jun 25, 2007 (modified on Jul 20, 2007)

Resourceful Living

7/20/07 - You can also find many different helpful resource links on my site, so please be sure to keep checking my page, as it continues to grow, and I continiously make updates & add resource links.  The one important thing to remember is to take things "one day at a time".  

Speaking of taking things slowly, it's especially important to take things "one day at a time" if you are trying to deal with a crisis and manage mental illness in addition to your crisis.  I have personally have dealt with mental illness most of my life, and I'm now 42, so if anyone knows the challenges of handling both, I do.  That's why I have also dedicated a page for Mental Health Matter's where you can find many stories, resources, links, information, support, etc. for mental illness of all kinds.  For me, I have to take things "one day at a time" because sometimes, that's the only way I can get through a day without being too overwhelmed.

Perhaps you want to know or read about a variety of different Life Matter's, well then I have another page for you to visit where you can do just that, read some of my personal blogging (with my personal opinions, thoughts, concerns, struggles, etc), find different life resources/links, information, inspiration & encouragement & much more.  Visit my page collectively titled...Life Matter's.  Please feel free to email me any time, we can go through it together.  If you have time, leave me a message and/or comment, I'd love to read them...for they (you) are my inspiration too!  Thanks to some great people here, along with their encouragment and support, that's a big part of what helps me day-to-day.  ~K

 

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7/12/07 - Some of you (and any others interested) may also want to check out my new site "Resourceful Living"  where you can find even more inspiration, resources/links, motivation tips, a forum, etc.  It's all thanks to the encouragement and help of many of you here including, but not limited to...Rose, Elaine, Soul Light, Poorly Living...all gave me the inspiration & the extra push...thanks to you all!!!  Come visit my page! 

 

Still lot's to do yet, but it continues to be up & running, with more Life Matters/Issues information & blogging each day !  So don't forget to keep checkin in with my new site ~KC's Bloggin' - "Life Matter's"  Rememer, like I said, it's just the beginning, so it has lot's of growth yet!  Thanks again everyone!  Please continue to keep me in your thoughts & prayers, as I will you!

 

 

7/5/07- My biggest challenge, and real-soon-to-be immediate need, is still bad word...finances $$$...keeping the rent paid, electric on, and definately my internet! But I'm going keep on keepin' on, because I have hope and I know I have prayers, and well-wishes.  Which you know I GREATLY APPRECIATE!

 

 

7-4-07 - I just wanted to take a minute to thank those who have been so gracious to me with your time, efforts, encouragement & helpful links.  So okay, it's not money, BUT it is doing me good.   So any other out there feeling down and/or hopeless, stick around!  So, I thank you for that & you know who you all are!  Thanks again, & I am certianly going to stick around for more encouragement, tips, & etc.

 

7-3-07 - For the record, NOT that anyone was accusing me, they weren't, but I just wanted to let everyone know, I only wanted $$$ to help me out this one time to get me through this...get me back on the right path.  HAD I gotten $1200, I could have gotten out of this situation, but now it' s much worse & is going to tons more worse.   Also for the record, I did NOT get even once cent donated from here, friends, family, no one.  I want to work at home (at a real job opportunity) and willing to work for it, but I can't get that either.  I have NEVER, EVER asked for free money in my life.  I've worked my butt off all my life for nothing.  I just didnt want to come across to anyone as trying to pull a scam or anything of the like.  I suppose I should let my time be done here b/c I've tried all I could for a week.  I will try to continue to fight, but I guess I'll just leave it in GODS hands now, whether it will work out or not and whether I will live or die, but I pray I die rather than deal with any of this any more.  As for the rest of you in need, and I know there is an unbelievable amount  of you here....do stay here & read on b/c there IS some good info here that can do a lot of people good.  Take Care.

 

 

My UPDATE:  It's too late, I have now LOST both my car AND my job.  My rent is due, I need food, computer payment is coming up and I don't have it, so things are about to get even worse than before.  I can AND will work from home, as I am very experienced in administrative office work as well as, writing, and I'm very computer/internet savvy.  I have lot's of skills to put to good use.  I've worked as a Travel Consultant, Beauty Consultant, worked in a law office, housing assistance/section 8, manufacturing, retail, rental property, etc., so I have TONS of experience under my belt in addition to my knowledge & skills, but I need a LEGITIMATE work from home job FAST/NOW!!!    One that is real, pays well is full-time and needs no $$$ down.  I just don't have a car, so I can't do any traveling or delivery, besides I have no money and my illness is hindering me getting outside right now too. 

I have my bad "suicidal" moments, and I know I need some help with counseling & etc, but I can't think about that, until I know I have a place to come back to.  I am trying to hold onto what little faith I have, but so far no breakthroughs in that area either.  I'm just very scared, and more desperate with each passing day.  I so want to get out of this & get ahead, so as to be able to come back here & help others too...that would be my wish.  I still have my page/link up, not that it's working right and it's too late for my car now, but I'll leave it up in case there is someone out there who want's to/can donate anything even if it's $10 or $1 ...because regardless of what happens, I'm going to need $$$ now to stay afloat & get me by until something is figured out or comes along.  In the meantime, I'll keep praying & PLEASE keep praying for me.  Thanks.

 

Dd_Inside07@yahoo.com

http://www.geocities.com/dd_inside07/Dead_Inside.html

 

IF YOU TRULY CARE & ARE IN ANY POSITION TO HELP ME YOU'LL FIND MY LINK BELOW.  ABSOLUTELY NO SCAMMERS, NO IMPOSTERS, NO PLAYERS, NO GAMERS, AND NO BUSY BODIES!!!  ONLY HONEST CARING PEOPLE WHO ARE IN A POSITION TO HELP!!!   IF YOU DONATE, I CAN & WILL SHOW YOU RECEIPTS & EXPLANATIONS TO WHERE THE MONEY GOES.  FEEL FREE TO READ MY MOST INNER DEEP THOUGHTS IN MY BLOGGING.  I DON'T KNOW WHAT ELSE I CAN DO OR SAY EXCEPT PLEASE.

 

http://www.geocities.com/dd_inside07/Dead_Inside.html

Dd_Inside07@yahoo.com

 

*JUST TO GIVE YOU SOME MORE INSIGHT....I'VE BEEN THERE/HERE BEFORE....MY EX-HUBBY USE TO CHEAT ON ME, STAY OUT ALL NIGHT DANCING & SLEEPING WITH ANOTHER WOMEN, THEY'D MAKE LOVE & THEN HE'D COME GET IN BED WITH ME THE NEXT MORNING SMELLING LIKE PERFUME, ALCOHOL & SEX, I'D TRY TO KICK HIM OUT, BUT IT NEVER WORKED...HE TREATED ME HORRIBLE, SO I EVENTUALLY FILED FOR DIVORCE AND THIS STARTED MY SEVERE FINANCIAL PROBLEMS TO WHERE THERE HAS BEEN NO END.  I divorced in 2001, my mother passed away December 13th, 2001 (she was helping me financially), then I became ill with Viral Menengitus in April 2002, so that hurt my finances (& apparently my job), then I lost my job of 8 1/2 years without any warning & I was Employee of the Year in 01.  Then I went on to lose my car and my home...everything!  I had no Christmas in 2005...no food, nothing.   Needless to say, my mental/emotional & physical state deteriorated pretty quickly, to which I have never been the same since.  I had no choice but to file Chapter 7 Bankruptcy in Nov 2005.  I struggled and made it through 2006 and just moved to Roanoke, VA to accept a new job and what I thought was going to be a great new start, only to turn into a nightmare!  And you know the rest aka the latest.

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Roseb441702
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23. Roseb441702 posted on Jul 20, 2007

Well I had a chance to take a look at your blog and you have more skills than you know! Now that you have gotten through the agony of waiting for Adsense to approve your blog you can now start watching your account to see the earnings that you are making. At least that's one hurdle. If it's any encouragement to you I can tell you that I have at least made the minimum amount this month so I will be sure to get a payment next month. I don't know if you saw the link that I posted about how much money people are making with adsense but I will post it again below.
How Much Money Can You Make With Google's Adsense?

Lady Christie posted on Jul 13, 2007... deleted on Jul 13, 2007 by Lady Christie

ekikaseven
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21. ekikaseven posted on Jul 6, 2007

Lord, Give this woman favor. Let her be blessed in all that she does. Amen.

Hopeful-Soul
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20. Hopeful-Soul posted on Jul 4, 2007

Thank you so much, I am so touched. I feel blessed just having met some of you here. Thanks again, & many blessing to you as well.

ekikaseven
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19. ekikaseven posted on Jul 4, 2007

Lord, I plead the blood of Jesus over this woman's mind. Give her Holy clarity of thoughts. Father, send Your Holy Spirit to abide within her and drive out all thoughts and spirits that are not of You. Give her wisdom and direction. Provide for her needs. Give her 'mountain-moving faith' in You. Destroy all works of darkness that has come against her. Heal her spirit, mind and body. Heal her hurts(past, present and future). Wipe the pain from her memory, put the residual effects of it far from her. Guide her, be with her. Wrap Your arms of love around her. Let her feel Your presence forever. Provide for all of her spiritual and earthly needs. Amen.

Hopeful-Soul
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18. Hopeful-Soul posted on Jul 4, 2007... modified on Jul 4, 2007

Thank you so much for your kind & encouraging words afriendinneed. I have my ups & downs, especially with my situation & having bipolar II, along with my other issues, so it's very challenging, but they have helped lift my spirits here & given me real ideas. Thanks again, and I hope your situation improves as well, and if okay WHEN mine improves, I'll be right around here to help anyone else anyway I can, including you. Bless you!

afriendinneed
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17. afriendinneed posted on Jul 4, 2007

It really hurts t see your posts. Considering all that I have been through myself, I am worried about the things that may happen to you solely based on your outlook. I am having the roughest financial time of my life right now and hope that someone can help even though there are many who are in a worse spot. For the sake of everyone who loves you and everyone with a caring soul, please look up. Someone WILL help you, and hpefully you will help someone else. f' sdf'

Elaine of TSA
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16. Elaine of TSA posted on Jul 4, 2007

Dear Hopeful: Have you read Rose's reply posting about 4 postings down re grant for Blog. You know you have skills. Why not think it over. Your own Blog. ;-) Best of Luck, Elaine

Elaine of TSA
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15. Elaine of TSA posted on Jul 4, 2007... modified on Jul 4, 2007

Dear Dead Inside: I don't know if you have heard or read any motivational coaches suggestions about positive thinking, but utilizing the pen name "dead inside" probably isn't helping your self image. Why not take a look at freecycle.org web site and see what is available. Also have you checked Soulights pages to see if there is a car program in your area? Blessings, Elaine

Elaine of TSA
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14. Elaine of TSA posted on Jul 4, 2007

Dear Dead Inside: We all battle our own demons and none are insurmountable. You are held in prayer that you overcome these difficulties and you are returned to a stable and fruitful life. Blessings, Elaine

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13. dead_inside07 posted on Jul 4, 2007

Thanks Elaine. I went back & viewed examples more thoroughly, as well as the guidelines, and I'm pretty certian, I know why they didn't approve mine. Yes, I think I basically asked for $$, and for both rent & my car to keep it from being repossessed. Although, I believe it's too late for my car, besides I needed $1225 to get it back. As for my rent, well it won't do me any good to ask for self-sufficiency right now, not until I actually regain employment, but I can't regain employment without a car and/or a home job. Plus, again, I know I need some counseling, etc. So perhaps, I will hold off a little bit on re-applying. Oh & Elaine...no matter how hard I try, depression/bipolar II...unfortanely, the negativety and paranoia go hand in hand, which I dispise, but I'm constantly trying to fight it. Thanks again for your opinion & info, I do appreciate it!

Elaine of TSA
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12. Elaine of TSA posted on Jul 4, 2007... modified on Jul 4, 2007

Dear Dead Inside: The modest needs grants are very specific. They also post sample applications on their web site so you know how to format your request. Do you actually meet their criteria? Have you asked for more than one item? Grants are usually limited to 1,000.00 max. All request are subject to verification by modest needs and they are limited to payment to creditors only. There is never a personal cash grant. I have no idea why you have not qualified. This is a question you can direct to them. I know for a fact that they do help, because I have referred others who have had successful applications submitted and another referral has passed the preliminary screening and is pending final supporting documentation. You need to stop with the negativity and simply and politely ask how to amend request and what you can do to get help. If you do not qualify for programs ask for their criteria and explanation of why you do not meet it. It may just be your approach that needs tweaking to opening doors. I know it is hard to be polite and open when you are frightened and the person you are contacting may not be terribly gracious, but the right approach will get you further. I think perhaps the following adage applies here "no need throwing the baby out with the bath water" Blessings, Elaine

Hopeful-Soul
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11. Hopeful-Soul posted on Jun 28, 2007

AND...those of you sending me email scams or posting scams...do you have no shame at all!!!??? I mean we are all here because we are at a low point in our lives, we HAVE NO MONEY!!! So why are you trying to get or make money from those who have none to take!!!??? Sorry, but I had to vent.

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10. Hopeful-Soul posted on Jun 28, 2007

Okay, so now what? I now have NO $$$ MONEY coming in at all, so things are going from BAD to WORSE. Which was why I was asking for help to prevent, only it didn't help. So now in a matter of days, I will begin to certainly lose everything...financially, personally, mentally and emotionally.

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9. Hopeful-Soul posted on Jun 27, 2007... modified on Jun 27, 2007

NOTHING WORKS! TIME IS RUNNING OUT! I have tried asking for donations, links given to me for $$$ available, loans, etc., AND STILL NOTHING!!! Either I get NO RESPONSES or I get turned down as always. I am in NO state of mind to handle all this, I'm losing all hope, along with my mind. I have two days to come up with money to get my car back, $$$ for my rent due on the 1st IF I don't get it, I WILL LOSE EVERYTHING after this point!!! I mean EVERYTHING!!! There will be no point of return this time, I will be down & out for good. My mind is back & forth on suicide, people give me hope & links & etc, so I hang on & try, BUT JUST GET DISAPPOINTED each & everytime...it's useless. I keep trying & holding on, BUT for what!!!??? WHAT!!!??? I'm eating pills left & right to cope & deal and waiting for the moment when I've had to many...hopefully soon! I mean I can't get one red cent anywhere, I'm so stupid I can't even set up a damn donation button right. I must be out of my mind to be doing this whole stupid thing anyway.

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8. Hopeful-Soul posted on Jun 26, 2007

One thing no one can say about me is, they can't say I never tried. Still nothing, no help. And looking at all the other pages/posts of people in need just makes me realize there is no hope for me or much of anyone.

Hopeful-Soul
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7. Hopeful-Soul posted on Jun 25, 2007

Unfortunately, I am at the end of my rope and nothing is working out, nothing has manifested, no solutions have worked. Still all I have is words of encouragement, but even those are empty to me anymore. I have prayed, I moved to a cheaper place, I have gone without food, cable, etc., many things for many years, I am not doing it anymore. One way or another it has to end.

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6. justnutz05 posted on Jun 25, 2007

I to have been at the end of my rope but am seeing that ending it is admiting defeat to your problems but with will and courage which you can come drum up everything will work out in the end, I can promise that. The Meek shall inherit the earth. but reaching out for assistance can be a welcome and much needed relief all of us as humans are in it together we just need to remember that.

Hopeful-Soul
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5. Hopeful-Soul posted on Jun 25, 2007

Thanks, and maybe I will see it for real, but in my lifetime, and that has been more than 40+ yrs now, I have yet to see "real" hope. I've seen and been given lot's of words of encouragement, but never more.

mikecrisco12000
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4. mikecrisco12000 posted on Jun 25, 2007

i was once as hopeless as any person could get. and it was in that hopelessness that i found HOPE. there is hope for the taking

Hopeful-Soul
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3. Hopeful-Soul posted on Jun 25, 2007

Thanks. And the 6' feet under thing...exactly it's real & permanent...nothing else is.

mikecrisco12000
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2. mikecrisco12000 posted on Jun 25, 2007

hope is only a click away.write to me at mikecrisco12000@yahoo.com i have had a lot of things happen to me and my life and felt like ending it more then once.but as you can tell i didn't life has been full of downs and not many ups.but that 6 foot under thing is a permanent solution to temporary problems.and i understand that it has been a life of downs but that can change it did for me. PLEASE WRITE ME -----ALIVE

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1. Hopeful-Soul posted on Jun 25, 2007
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